GARRISON, nixon alan

for Active, which is a good word to use to describe me. Lazy is not a word that's ever been applied to me. I am always doing something it seems because I work, work out, enjoy being outdoors, like participating in sports, work on things that need fixed, chase care-bear around and take care of her, help in the community and just a lot of things. No one ever got anywhere by sitting on their ass doing nothing so I try to always be doing something.

for Brave, people like using this word on me for various reasons. My friend Jane once said "You're brave because you willingly take on things that scare other people away because it's the right thing to do." Maybe she's right? I don't know. I was scared becoming a single father, I was scared when I realized becoming an officer wasn't just a childhood dream anymore but a career I wanted to pursue, I was scared when I sent off my letters to get into college. I've been scared many other times in my life for various reasons...but I can't let fear stop me or I won't really be living.

for Caroline, my three year old daughter. Her mom, Eve, and I started dating in high school and care-bear wasn't planned. We weren't careful enough and she got pregnant. When her parents threatened to kick her out it all turned into a fight because even if Caroline wasn't planned she's still my daughter. The only way she would go through with giving birth and not getting an abortion was if I took her and raised her. Eve's parents didn't want their daughters life "ruined" by having to become a mom so I said yes and signed the papers getting custody of her. My parents were more understanding and helped me out at first but I've always been the one taking care of her and raising her.

for Daddy, which is what my daughter Caroline calls me. I didn't plan on being a dad so soon in my life but I wouldn't change it for the world because hearing her say 'daddy' to me is the most amazing thing in the world. She is my world and I hope I can give her the life she deserves.

for elephant-ears. They are my weakness, a food I can not resist. If there is a fair within a 2hour driving distance I'm going and getting one. My mom got me hooked on them when we would go to fairs.

for Family, namely my mom and dad because they're amazing people. They raised me right, and because of that I think maybe I'll be an okay dad myself. They've always supported me and they help so much with Caroline by watching her when I work and answering frantic calls in the middle of the night when I don't know what to do or if something is wrong.

for Gadgets, things like electronics or stuff that just catches the attention. I like to keep up with technology and I like to tinker but I'm not great at putting anything but cars back together.

for Home, which is here in Myrtle Beach. I have an apartment since money is not something I'm made of. Care-bear and I don't need a mansion so the nice apartment suits us fine. It's been home since about the time Caroline turned one so about two years now though I'm saving up for a day when a house is more preferable.

for Intelligent and I'm not trying to blow my own horn but I'm no dummy. I did good in school and university and I'm proud of the fact I was good in my learning. Even out of schooling I'm not stupid and that comes in handy in my job and life in general.

for Joker because I like to have fun and joke around with friends. My jokes might be cheesy but I don't care since its about laughing not being a stand up comedian. Pranks are pretty funny too so long as no one gets hurt by them.

for Kind because I'm not a mean guy, everyone has their moments where they aren't nice but I always try to be as nice as possible to people. I'm that guy who will help someone out if it looks like they could use a hand and laugh all you want but I actually have helped an old lady cross a street before.

for Loving/Lonely since I'm not sure which to go with. I'm a loving person and I don't hide it or ignore it. I don't mean just in relationships either, I mean in an all round kind of way where I love my friends who become like family to me and I love my family. Lonely is the other L-word and it's amazing how often it's connected with love right? I'm not exactly lonely all the time I mean I have care-bear, my family, friends...that kind of thing. The part about it that's lonely is not having anyone to share it all with since Eve claims she doesn't even have a daughter and most of my friends don't really understand a lot of what's going on because they don't have children yet. Sometimes it would be nice to have someone to share it all with or who understood. I'm not crying into my beer about it though, I chose my path and I'd do everything over again just the same.

for Mad, because even though I don't let it show I'm still mad as hell at Eve. We were together for years and I was in love with her but the second everything got real and a step harder she cut and run. I gave her everything and she didn't even care. I'm okay with that mostly now though. The real reason I'm mad is because she let Caroline down. One day she's going to need a mom for something big like how she'll have needed a mom for a billion other big and little things. That day will come and she's only going to have her dad. I will be the best dad I possibly can be for her and I know if Eve wasn't going to have her heart in being a mon Caroline is better off without her but what if she blames me for not having her mom or blames herself...thinks she's not good enough or something...that day if it comes? I will be devastated. Because Caro should not ever be hurt, especially not that way. She did not a damned thing wrong and the fault is ALL on Eve.

for Nine; which is my favorite number/my lucky number. Call me a superstitious weirdo if you like but I stand by the fact that nine is my number a d nothing will ever change my mind.

for Officer Garrison. Yep I an a police officer and it's one of those things where as a kid it sounded cool and fun to grow up to be. Only it stuck with me and I realized it was really what I wanted to do with my life. I know it can be dangerous but I am as careful as I can be for Caro's sake. I don't want her to be parentless. I take my job seriously but not in the sense that I'm 24/7 cop. I still have fun and relax, if I'm not on duty I'm just Nixon.

for Piano and the lessons my parents insisted I follow through on. My dad knew how to play and had/has one in the living room. I wanted to learn too so much begging got me lessons and that led to the "You wanted to learn so no you can't stop now" talk and life lesson. I'm glad the made me stick to it though because it's actually pretty calming and playing for weddings helped with costs in university. I don't have a piano, well I have an electric one in the apartment but I can't play unless Caro is awake but then she wants to play too so...sometimes I'll plug headphones in and leave one off my ear while I play in case Caro wakes up and needs me so I can hear.

for Quiet-Time which I do not get much of anymore. Care-bear is just so full of life and energy and loves showing it off. I do like my quiet time when I can get it though. I read, surf the net, clean, work on stuff or most often sleep when I get it.

for Responsible...bet you didn't see that coming from a cop did you? Seriously though it's just how I've always been. Yeah I would/will have fun and party but I'll be safe about it all. I don't leave things that need done until the last minute unless it's unavoidable. Safety is important in everything and I'm an adult so I act like one.

for Stable is what I hope I am and I'm pretty sure it's right. I am dependable and loyal...I don't go out and do reckless things or get in trouble and I am mature and grown up. None of this means I'm boring or things like that since I still like to cut loose and have fun, I just do the fun stuff as responsibly as possible.

for Tequila makes my clothes fall off. It's the alcohol that makes me think naked is how life should be spent. I swear depending on the type of alcohol you get different effects with me.

for Undead since I'm a nut for the movies and things that are 'supernatural' undead like vamps or zombies are my favorites but I watch it all.

for V8 juice which I love. It's awesome stuff both tasty and good for ya. As a kid I got hooked on it because my mom was health conscious so she talked me into trying it and I liked it. Now I drink some basically every day.

for Wishes on my birthday or on any occasion where wishes are made. I like to believe wishes have the potential to be "granted" so I follow the wishing rules and hope for the best. Call me a dreamer if you want and you won't be the only person to. It's just part of what makes me, me.

for X in my name, which is not something a lot of people have? I don't know...it's hard to come up with x words that make sense unless you play the xylophone?

for Young because I still feel young and still am young. It's easy to get wrapped up in stuff going on and forget you're not actually that old and you've still got time coming, it seems I forget it now and then but something happens and I remember again.

for Zebra which is care-bears favorite animal right now. "Caro what's your animal?" gets you a stuffed zebra in the face because she gets excited. Zebra has become a theme in my life because it makes her happy.