WARRICK, walter evan

10: Kindergarten. Show and Tell day at school. I decided to take my dog for show and tell, begged and begged, and begged some more and mom finally said yes. The school okayed it and so Spike got to come to school for a short time so i could talk about how old he was and what he liked to do and everyone could pet him. I went home that night and Spike wasn't there...he got loose when mom took him back home and got hit by a car. I was crushed because Spike was my best friend.

9: When My Dad Died. I was eight, my dad was/is my hero. He was a firefighter and was in a building when it collapsed. Mom says he didn't hurt, that he died fast when stuff landed on him but I've heard friends of the family talk before about it. They fought to get to him and he was calling out to them so they would know his location. They just didn't get there in time.

8: Willow's birth. My mother found out about a month after my dad's death that she was pregnant. It was hard on her, finding that out as a shock after losing him. When Willow was born she was perfect and amazing and I loved her instantly. She's my baby sister and anyone who fucks with her will have to deal with me. Seriously.

7: Mack joins the family. We weren't planning on getting a dog at the time but a stray showed up in the yard and well...we got attached to him and ended up taking him in. The vet thought he was about two years old at the time and he fit in well with us so we were happy to have him.

6: Mom getting re-married. My mom met my step-dad Jack when I was eleven and they were together three years before they decided to take the leap and get married. He was good to my mom and Willow got really attached to him too and I like him, he's never going to be my dad but as long as he treats my mom and sister right I'm fine with him being around.

5: The move. I grew up in a small town in new york, not the city but the state. When I was twelve Jack got a job here in Myrtle Beach and we all moved. It wasn't a bad move, just a little hard because we had been living in our original house. My dad's house. Then Jack gets a job somewhere else and we have to give it up.

4: Fights. High school...it was an experience all it's own. I mean it's not like i hated it or something it just...got to become a bit of a war for a little while. I don't remember what the first fight was about but once you start fighting then it just kinda becomes pattern. Sounds like I'm making an excuse but that's how it worked for me. Once I started fighting as a way of avoiding emotions I just kept doing it.

3: Police intervened then my mom got through to me.. Okay so my fights got a bit out of hand in and out of school, seemed like I was always getting into something with someone and eventually the police got involved. They did the "lock him up for a night" thing and then my mom sat me down for a talk about how I was going to be spending a really really long time in a cell if I didn't sort out my crap. The way she said it, the things we talked about that night kinda cleared out my head a little. I still had the urge to fight and it still happened now and then but it wasn't as bad or as often anymore. I started channeling my emotions and stuff into other things instead of turning it into anger and fights.

2: I got accepted into college. So even while fighting and being a cocky dick and causing problems and all that stuff I still got good enough grades to get into college. Choosing what to study was pretty easy, I'd always had a love of animals and I'd worked at a shelter so I chose to become a vet. Working as a vet tech to start so I could get some experience while getting my education.

1: I've never been in love. Through everything and even when I was running with a really rough/bad crowd...heck I'm still doing that but anyway through it I dated a little, but never fell in love. Love just wasn't something I felt at least not in a "forever be with" kind of way. I don't even know why I'm including this here but there you have it. Historical fact I've never been in love.

9: Temper: This is...well i'm not positive it's an "emotion" so much as a descriptive word but it counts and I'm using it. I have a temper, I know it, other people know it, it's known. It's not as bad as it used to be but I still have it and I don't think it's ever going to go away. I get angry easier than I'd like, someone says or does something and it sets me off and I throw a punch before I stop to think about what that may lead to or if it's even called for. I'm working on being better in control, thinking before punching and not just lashing out at everything. Been doing alright at it but it still happens sometimes. My temper isn't always physical either...I fight with words as easily as fists.

8: Caring: I may be a hot-headed fighter but that's just one side of me and it's a side that's getting smaller and smaller as I learn self control. The side coming through more often now is the caring guy, the one who'll be there for his friends and help them when he can. I've always cared I've just...sucked at expressing it.

7: Shy: While I might be willing to throw a fist without blinking walking up to a stranger and starting a conversation is not something I'm good at. I've just never been good at that actually and I honestly don't think I ever will be good at it.

6: Sweet: Some people have called me sweet, those who were friends not people I've fought with. I got the sweet title because I guess I can be when it's someone I trust or care about? I remember stuff and notice little things that matter for later then do what I can with that information...just not in a creepy way normally.

5: Scared: This is a big part of why I fight, or so I was told by my councilor. I'm scared of losing anyone else, scared of never being anything like my dad, scared of never getting out of the rut I feel like I'm in...I'm scared of a lot of things so I lash out to hide my fear. Or something like that.

4: Lonely: This one is more complicated because I'm not actually alone so why feel lonely right? Well I like my stepdad cause my mom and sister adore him, but I've never considered him a father. He's just my moms new husband who replaced my dad and stole my family. I've never felt like a part of my family since he came along and I don't even get close with friends really. They know the basics of me but not all of me.

3: Honest: I'm going to tell you my honest opinion when asked and even when not asked sometimes if I think you should know. Lies just tangle you up and cause more problems so I don't bother with them and I really don't like being lied to ever either. Lies are something that will start a fight.

2: Acting: What I let people see of me most days is an act to hide what's underneath. The temper, acting like nothing gets under my skin past pissing me off, the way I seem to be okay? None of its real but no one can know that because I have to seem normal or it all falls apart.

1: Loyal: One thing that is clear and will always be clear is my loyaly to my family, friends, or anyone who deserves it. I won't be your friend or have your bad only until it gets rough or too much to handle...if you're sinking I'm going down with you while trying to keep you afloat. There's nothing I wouldn't do for those I feel loyal to.

8: Maria Warrick-Vector {mother}

7: Richard Warrick {deceased father}

6: Willow Warrick {little sister}

5: Jack Vector {step-father}

4: Angela Warrick {grandmother}

3: Lt. Sampson Foster {arresting officer}

2: Brandy Mason {counselor}

1: Douglas Harroway {best-friend in NY}

7: Running/Jogging/Walking

6: All kinds of music and movies.

5: Spicey foods (cooking).

4: Helping animals.

3: Loud clubs or events.

2: Willow because she's my little sister.

1: Thunderstorms.

6: Uncooked veggies.

5: Being alone.

4: Heights.

3: Fire.

2: My own temper.

1: Lies.

5: Back in Black (AC/DC) - dads favorite song and mine too.

4: Crazy Train (Ozzy Osbourne)

3: Renegade (STYX)

2: Suzie Q (CCR)

1: Burn it to the ground (Nickelback)

4: Veterinarian - I've always loved animals so a job where I can help them is something I see as a good thing. It's a dream that I've decided to make into a reality.

3: Stunt-Man - Once it was explained to me that actors and actresses don't actually do their own stunts I went through a phase where I wanted to be the one doing the stunts.

2: Cowboy - What little boy doesn't want to be a cowboy?

1: Fire Fighter - My dad was a fire fighter and he was my hero so I wanted to grow up to be just like him. I'm not like him though...no matter how hard I try. But this was part of wanting to be like him.

3: Fighting

2: Dealing with animals

1: Acting

2: You don't have to be him, you have to be yourself. - Maria Warrick-Vector

1: Do or do not, there is no try - Yoda

1: I hate myself.