Post by CHLOE MOORE on Jul 25, 2012 14:14:13 GMT -5
[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 500px; -moz-border-radius: 20px 0px 20px 0px; border-radius:20px 0px 20px 0px; padding: 10px; border: #000000 solid 0px; ] stuck in this daydream. [style=font-family: helvetica; font-size: 13px; letter-spacing: 6px; text-transform: uppercase; text-align: center;]RUBY FULL NAME: chloe jayla moore ALIAS: chlo, jay DATE OF BIRTH: march 27th, 1995 AGE: seventeen OCCUPATION: local musician / barista SEXUALITY: heterosexual PLAY BY: demi lovato HIGH SCHOOL [style=background-color: #CAD1CE; border: 10px solid #CAD1CE; font-family: georgia; letter-spacing: 10px; color: #7A908E; text-align: center;]all about me ummm hey zooey. before i go on about my life, i just.... i really want to say i'm sorry. god, you have no idea how sorry i am. there is not enough sorry's i can say to show just how awful i feel about leaving you behind. i had no choice; you understand that right? i love you, sis, just remember that. if i could have had it any other way, you can bet that i would have brought you here with me. i'll get you out of there zo, i promise. you probably hate me, i don't blame you. i would too.... i miss you. i hope you're doing okay. i know the last thing you want to do is see or hear from me, but i miss you so much, zo. we used to talk to each other every day and since you've been admitted there, you haven't said a word to me. so i thought that maybe i could send you this video about my life, and perhaps..... if you're up for it.... you could respond with a video of your own about your life. i want to hear from you. i feel so empty without my twin. you're my other half zo. literally. well anyway.... here goes nothing. ummm today is june 23rd. it's currently 2pm and I just finished my last final exam of my sophomore year. so much has happened the past four months since i left you. i wish you were here with me to experience it with me. you would love it here, zo. i can't wait till i have enough money to get you out of the stupid rehab center they've got you in. it's always sunny compared to the rainy depressing weather there. everyone here is so nice. gosh, they would have loved you! i know my husband would love you too. -chuckle- your eyes are probably bugging out of your sockets right now. i can just imagine it. i know i'm still young, but i love him, sissy. you would love him too. he's great. it's strange to think that when i first met him, i had hated his guts. he was the kind of guy that we both swore we would never fall for. he was the typical popular guy who thought he could get anyone he wanted. you should have seen him. he was the basketball player that the whole school worshiped. he was a cocky son of a monkey. you know the type, zo. he's the kind of guy who played with girls' emotions. i think if it were you instead of me, you would have thrown a punch at him when he tried to make a move. you probably think i'm a fool for falling for his charms, but i swear, he's not like this. well, at least not anymore. i know i've only known him for four short months, but he's my life, zo. he's what makes me want to wake up every morning. [/style]what i have with him.... it's like the kind of relationship you would read from a novel. sometimes i think i'm still dreaming, but it's real. gosh, zo, i'm the luckiest girl in the world, and i wish i could share this life with you. i know mom and dad misses you too. it doesn't seem like it because they didn't take you, because they put you in the center, but that's only because they care about you zo. they're so heartbroken without you here in their new home. i know they haven't contacted you, but it's just been hard for them, you know? they mean well, zo. our family is not the same without you, so please, get better. there's so many people i want to introduce you to! i want to share you with the world. i know colton would love to meet you. gosh knows i talk about you to him enough. but what can i say, you're my best friend. no one can ever take that spot from you. he doesn't believe me when i say i'm not one of a kind. he just hasn't met you. i miss having someone finishing the other half of my sentences and singing duets with me. he's a great guy, zo, really. i promise that you would love having him around. he's my world, sissy. he can make me smile no matter what. it's been hard. we've had our fights, but i can't stay mad at him. all he has to do is just give me that sad smile of his and i just.... i just melt. gosh, i sound kind of like a lovesick puppy, don't i? but who cares? all i care about is him. i live with him now, you know? it's nothing special, but it's our's. it's my home. i know you're probably going to lecture me about how reckless i am for marrying him so soon, that i could have waited, but i couldn't, zo. i can't imagine a life without him. he's my everything. he believes in me. i know mom and dad wants us to take over the company together one day, but colton supports my music career. he believes in me. i know i can make it, zo. i want to make it there with you. being a musician is my dream. but you know how much of a dreamer i can be. maybe it's a downfall, but colton says i'll make it. he doesn't doubt me like mom and dad does. i know they're upset i married off at such a young age, but they like colton. they approve, so i'm glad. really, the marriage was more of a spur of the moment thing. it wasn't a big wedding. nothing like the kind of wedding we planned when we were kids. i still want that. i still want the double wedding and the pretty white dresses and the backyard wedding, but maybe later in life. for now, i'm just happy to be just his. mom was absolutely devastated when i came home one day with a wedding ring on my finger and almost threw a fit because i didn't throw the traditional kind of wedding. i promised her it would happen one day. but for now, i just want to finish school. maybe i'll go to college. who knows? i don't need it. i just want to be a musician, but maybe i'll go to college to make mom and dad happy. right now, though, it's hard. colton and i are barely scraping by. i know that if i asked mom and dad, they would do anything to help support us, but i don't want their money. i want to get through this on my own with colton. right now, i'm just working as a barista and i sing at a local diner at nights. it's nothing big, but it's a start. it's something. i know i've already said this, but i really wish you were here zo. it's just not the same. i wish you had started the new school with me. maybe you would have met your own version of colton. gosh, thinking back now, it's a bit of a cliche, don't you think? he ruled the school and i was just a new kid. but fate brought us together. he was forced into the peers-helping-peers program and we spent two head aching weeks together. we did nothing but argue with each other and butt heads. but somewhere along the way, i fell, zo. i fell fast and hard. i'm sure you would have smacked me upside the head for falling for someone like him if you were here with me. i couldn't help it. i can't believe he's mine. all mine. i'm so lucky, zo. really, i think this was all just chance. i was just there for colton at the right place and the right time. he was going through a tough time, what with his mom being killed by a drunk driver. i'm not a violent person, you know that better than anyone. i don't even swear. -laughs- yeah, i still substitute monkeys for swear words. but at that moment, having seen colton so devastated, i, too, wanted to hurt the man who had killed his mom. i was so angry. it wasn't normal. i would have done anything just to see him smile. to not look so sad. but all i could do was just be there for him. i think that was all he really needed, though- someone to be there for him. sometimes i think he's too good for me. but i know he would say the same about me. -sighs happily- oh zooey, i promise, i'll get you out of there. mom and dad might not be happy, but when i have the money, i'll get you out of there, and then you can come live with colton and i. you'll love it! we can live out the life we've always wanted. it'll be hard, but i won't give up. not on colton, and definitely not on you. i love the both of you way too much. as much as i love our parents, you two are truly my life. you guys are what complete me. and i know i'm nothing without the either of you. so please, zo, i know you hate me now, but try to find it in your heart to forgive me. i wasn't trying to abandon you. i need you.... well, i have to get to work now, zo. i really want to hear from you. i miss hearing your voice, your laughter, your music. i love you sissy, remember that. |
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