Post by HECTOR ROWAN on Oct 10, 2012 15:22:23 GMT -5
[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 500px; -moz-border-radius: 20px 0px 20px 0px; border-radius: 20px 0px 20px 0px; padding: 10px; border: #000000 solid 0px; ] stuck in this daydream. [style=font-family: helvetica; font-size: 13px; letter-spacing: 6px; text-transform: uppercase; text-align: center;]SASS FULL NAME: Hector Albert Rowan ALIAS: Tor, Heccy DATE OF BIRTH: 08/05/94 AGE: Eighteen OCCUPATION: Busboy SEXUALITY: Straight PLAY BY: Logan Lerman TOURIST [style=background-color: #65727A; border: 10px solid #65727A; font-family: georgia; letter-spacing: 10px; color: white; text-align: center;]all about me [style=font-family: Open Sans Condensed; text-transform: none; font-size: 40px; margin-left: 10px; border-left: 3px solid #65727A; border-top: 3px solid #65727A; border-bottom: 3px solid #65727A; color: #65727A; padding: 8px; letter-spacing: 1px;]Amish is what his whole family is, and what he once was before being disowned. he grew up in the amish life style, his parents raising him in their way and expecting it to be his life forever same as he always expected. things don't always go as planned though do they? Busboy is his current job, he works in a small restaurant earning what money he can and trying to survive on it. he didn't know much about any of it to start off but he's adapting well to it now and lives from paycheck to paycheck and off of tips. Charming is what people call him because of his personality type where he's genuine, sweet, and innocent which somehow seems to equal charming? he doesn't mind that people call him this but he does blush every time it's said which is why some people say it. Disowned he was disowned by his parents when they found out he'd gotten his girlfriend pregnant out of wedlock and had been lying to be able to sneak into a nearby town to "act inappropriately" according to the amish way of life. they had him pack his things and just leave immediately once returning home and having this conversation, he didn't stand a chance. Education he was schooled in the community and is technically a high school graduate though he doesn't have a diploma. he's studying and working toward getting his GED while working and learning his new life. Father is a title he will hold in four more months when his girlfriend gives birth. currently she wants him in her life and the baby's life but she changes her mind depending on the day and mood. he's terrified of this, of becoming a father when he screwed his own life up so badly but also is excited because the child is his own flesh and blood. he doesn't have any clue where he'll actually stand when the day comes and he's not sure what to hope for in truth. he'll just have to wait and see what happens, deal with it when it does. Girlfriend (ex?) her name is miriam she was amish as well, lived in the same community as him and is the reason he was sneaking into town to begin with, she "corrupted" him and when she found out she was pregnant she intended to just run away. Hector wanted to do right and marry her, begin a life and hope they could get back in the community's good graces but it blew up in his face and she hates him for it because they're now "dishonored" and "disowned" meaning she can't sneak back after the baby's born. he suspects she's in touch with another community and trying to get them to take her in by spinning lies which she's good at. it would explain why one moment she wants him around and the next she tells him he's going to have no say in the child's life. they're at a complicated place where she lives with him but doesn't want to say they're together so technically they are not dating just having a child? he's confused. Hopeful even though he's been kicked out of his family, community, and life in general he's still hopeful for the future and what's to come. he hopes to make it living like this, become a worthy man and not always be "that amish joke" which is the insulting title his co-workers call him behind his back when they think he can't hear. he knows better than to hope to get his family back, they'll never take him in again because he's as good as dead to them now. Intelligent despite what people may think of him for the life he's lived Hector is not a stupid man by any means of the word. he knows more of how the world works than you would think even if he doesn't know about all the technology and things. he's a fast learner and a man who doesn't back down from a challenge so he's willing to try anything and figure it out. he's determined to make it and to do so he needs to use the brains he has. Jacob Troyer is not only the name he was given at birth but is also the name of his father...ex-father?...the man who raised him. he was named after his father when born and was the man's pride and joy because they'd been scared they would not be able to have children at all. he was a shock and a miracle to them and he's also his father's biggest disappointment because of his mistakes and it was proven by his dad disowning him and kicking him out. Katie Troyer is his mother who's softer of heart than his father, she had tried talking to his father to get him to accept Hector's choice to marry miriam and do right by her. his father wouldn't hear it though and it broke his mother's heart he knew it. He was the reason his mother hurt and he'll never forgive himself for it because his mother is such a gentle loving woman and he was her only child but he forced her to give him up with his poor choices. Love / Loss hector loved his family, he loved miriam, he loved his life and he lost all of the things he loved all in one day. he knows it's his own fault but he still hurts from the loss of his loves. his family will never again acknowledge his existence and ties to them, he can never go back to his community and life, according to miriam he's never going to be anything to her but the man who ruined her life and the father of the child she carries. it's hard to face and deal with and he's a bit more wary of love these days. Mistakes he made them when he got miriam pregnant and he made many more other than that. he got hooked on technology and began sneaking around lying to his parents and living poorly for a man of his faith. he gave in to temptation and it was a mistake he's learning from those mistakes now because of their consequences. he does believe that mistakes happen for a reason though so he's hoping some day it will be clear to him. New Life being disowned and kicked out led to a fresh start for Hector and the first thing he did was change his name because his old name hurt him seeing as it was his father's name and was given to him as a show of pride in his son. he didn't choose his name, he let the woman who gave him a place to live choose the name for him because she was so kind in helping him get on his feet. he started paying rent on the place she'd given to him and miriam once he had a job and money to do so and has been working on making something of this new life he's been forced to live. Outgoing shy is never a word that could have been used for Hector and not one that will ever be used for him. he is a friendly type of man who enjoys meeting new people and making friends. he likes being friendly because he thinks it is a strong trait to have that will help him in life because if you're not able to be outgoing enough to take chances and meet new people you get nowhere. Panic Attacks are something he gets and honestly has always gotten. he doesn't know why this happens but even before things went badly in his life he'd had them so he's learned to deal with them in some basic ways but they still knock him on his ass when they strike. he gets them far more often now and it's hard to deal with even knowing and understanding them. Questions he has a million of them and often answers a million of them. people like questioning his life and the way things were before he was disowned or what got him disowned and things and he does his best to answer but sometimes he really doesn't want to. he has questions of his own and isn't afraid to ask them because if he's going to understand things he needs to ask about them right? it's how he's learned a lot about living "normally" in the world verses how he used to live. Rage Blackouts he is not a violent man at all, he's not really even an angry guy but if you have him backed into a corner you'll find out that he's a huge bottler emotionally and then it just kinda bursts out of him. when hector is pushed too far he literally blacks out in rage and anything is possible from verbal fights to physical though physical is more likely and getting him to stop is hard. Scared he's never been truly alone before and now he is even though miriam is there and the woman who took them in tries to help out now and then. it will never be the same as having family and a whole community there for you and he's scared of losing who he truly is. he's scared of screwing up again, of not surviving this, of the dark, of nightmares and panic attacks, of people who would beat him up for the change in his pocket, of being a father, of miriam disappearing one day without a word...he's scared of a lot of things. Taco's are something he's recently discovered and learned he loves. taco's are something he never had before but that a friend introduced him too and taught him to love because they're tasty and amazing. he could honestly eat taco's every day for dinner and be happy at this point. Used he knows that miriam's just using him, he knows she's probably going to take off either after the baby's born without a word just leaving him to figure things out or before the baby's born to live with a community that will accept her and provide for her and the baby. he knows he's being used but he doesn't try to stop her because he's scared of losing her and never knowing his child or of just being even more alone. Violet is surprisingly his favorite color, he doesn't know why or what made it into his favorite color but he just likes it. it's vibrant and beautiful and he doesn't care if "purple" is girly because he doesn't think colors have genders assigned to them. Winter is his favorite season out of them all. he loves the purity of the snow when it's freshly fallen and blanketing everything. he doesn't mind the cold and enjoys the way things are so quiet and peaceful in the winter time. Xanthous is a new word he learned from a friend that means "Of the color intermediate between green and orange in the color spectrum; of something resembling the color of an egg yolk" he needs friends who don't know such random facts? Young for everything he's been through he's still young and while he acts mature for his age that doesn't change the fact he's 18 years old. he sometimes lets his youth show on purpose, most times it's an accident, and he tries not to be too young in the eyes of authority because he doesn't want to become a charity case or be looked down on because he's a man, he's legally an adult and he's wants to be treated appropriately for his position in life not like some child who is playing grown up. Zoo is a place he loves going, something about seeing all the different kinds of animals in the same place where they live and survive even though it's not their original habitats gives him more hope that he can do this, he can be a "normal" guy away from his family and the life he thought he'd live. [/style][/style] |
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