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Post by ruth on Oct 26, 2012 21:11:07 GMT -5
i'll make this pretty later w/e. also she's wearing this and rou beats everyone.
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a girl's day was exactly the kind of thing that ruth needed. with tensions running high and stress at every corner it seemed, the only thing she - and the baby, for that matter - needed was some time away from life. she needed to have a chance to get away and pretend like none of this was really happening. she had to pretend that everything was normal, that she was still the same ruth winters she was a couple of months ago, and that her life was absolutely peachy. although, to be completely honest, to say that her life was all doom and gloom would be a blatant lie, and lou would know that absolutely better than anyone else that ruth kept in contact with. she was excited to hell and back about having a baby. well, about actually keeping the baby, anyways. but if you really wanted to get technical, she wasn't even keeping the baby. not really. she was going to pop the sucker out and then hand it off to two deserving men, one of which just so happened to be her absolute best friend. and although ruth was selfish and didn't put other people's happiness before her own (another reason why she would never be a fit mother), she put her own needs aside for just this moment. she was scared to death of what people would think if the secret ever slipped out. she was scared to death of delivering the baby. but you know what? lou was already making this worthwhile as far as she was concerned. he was absolutely excited, that much was sure. they had already begun talking about what he would paint their nursery like, and to be frank, she couldn't wait to see what he could come up with. and just that alone was enough to make ruth know that, despite how many times she was flip flopping with the idea of adopting out the baby, she was doing the right thing. julian and lou would be the most perfect parents for him -- or her. it. whatever it was going to be when it finally came out nine months down the road.
the fact of the matter was that the two of them would be able to offer the baby a hell of a lot more than what ruth ever could.
besides all of the shopping adventures they still had left to embark on, ruth decided that today, they needed to do something they hadn't done in a long time. it was mostly thanks to the obnoxiously loud growling in her stomach, but also the painful yearning in her chest that kind of wished that none of this happened. she wanted to go back to the old days - although they weren't that far away - where her and lou got drunk together (okay, so it was only that one time, but still) and woke up to tell the tales the next day. she wished their lives - maybe even hers especially - hadn't gotten so complicated so quickly. but friends that are worth keeping around are the ones that stick around through thick and thin, right?
ruth had shot lou a text an hour ago, telling him to meet her at slice of cake. cake was the only thing that really sounded good to her, but you could definitely thank ruth jr for that. plus, she wanted to eat something lighthearted and delicious, because she really didn't want anything to drag down the time she was going to be spending with lou today. she needed to be happy and carefree, or else this would be the longest pregnancy she'd ever have to endure, even if it was her first she was actually following through with.
she was sitting at the table, tracing patterns in the table while her chin was resting on her overturned palm. when lou finally appeared at the table, occupying the chair across from her, she lifted her head up and grinned. "pet!" she greeted cheerily. "so how are you?"
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