gonna use my heart and not my head, eli

[SCARLETT DRESCELL]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,10,true][/style][atrb=style, width: 525px; border-bottom: 20px #9B6402 solid, bTable] COPS CAN CHASE BUT THEY WON'T CATCH ME not before i get to speak my mind, if there's still time [style=height: 303px; width: 250px; margin-right: -520px; font-size: 8.5px; font-family: tahoma; text-align: justify; line-height: .9; text-transform: lowercase; overflow: auto; scrollbar-base-color:#9B6402; color: #000;]the bottom of a bottle is where scarlett had been living for the past few hours, haunted with memories of the past that she had sworn to keep locked away in her mind but they were breaking loose. each sip was dedicated to someone, her mother for abandoning her in the family’s time of need, her father for leaving her, the baby that she gave up when she was seventeen, and many more to the heartless comments she had made and then the bottle was empty and it was onto another. sleep came in an uneasy feeling of naseau and depression as the bottle dropped off the couch and scarlett’s eyelids began to drop with the weight that was pulling it down. sighing softly into the material of the couch, she lulled herself to sleep with her own throes of thought, pulling her reality into her dreams and making everything come to light. vivid images from her point of view and others rose to her mind while her body was physically drained and thrusted into the dreamworld that was haunted by her own alcohol soaked thoughts. the morning light had her eyes opening from what felt like a restless sleep though the position of her body had been unchanging and she quickly covered her mouth as her own feelings began to rise into her throat and she launched herself off the couch, wobbly at first but made her way into the bathroom to unload everything from last night into the toilet bowl. giving a sob as she reached for the handle, flushing the past away once more, she wiped at her bloodshot eyes and gripped the bathroom counter until her knuckles turned white. what was happening to her? losing herself in alcohol? caring for another? this was uncharacteristic of her and with a cold splash of water on her face, scarlett stared at her reflection as droplets fell from her face, mixing with her own tears. scarlett hardly cried, she did not even shed a tear at her own father’s funeral as the realization of his death had hardened her, turning her world views upside down and making her cold to the world—but she was crying now, and was unsure of the reason. sniffling, trying with every once of strength that she had left to hold back the tears, her knees buckled beneath her and she crumbled to the bathroom floor in a heap of despair, ”what..the..fuck..”

[/b] she hissed out, brushing the black tresses from her face as they stuck to her tear stained cheeks.

the phone that had been resting in her pocket had decided to interrupt her breakdown, vibrating and sending the sensation into her leg to alert her of a text. digging into her phone, she was ready to tell the person off with harsh words before seeing a text from someone that she had already said her peace to, but the words on the screen burned her for some reason, bye. that was all that she got after everything that they had been through? he had shared her bed, his clothes, their words but none of that should have mattered. scarlett was no innocent girl, her bed had many occupants and hardly repeated the cycle but after one drunken mistake, scarlett broke her own rule and allowed eli to return whenever he wanted her or whenever she wanted a companion. it felt right at the time but as she stared at the one word with blurred vision, she felt a sudden rage rush through her veins and resulted in her heart to start racing. she deserved more than a text and he deserved more than the sorry of a goodbye that she had given him. glancing to the time on the home screen, scarlett pulled herself to her feet and rushed into her bedroom, discarding clothing on the way and making a trail. she tossed her phone onto her bed and quickly reached for some tanktop and jeans with her leather coat, attempting to get dressed as fast as she could. her hair was thrown into a ponytail as it appeared less greasy in that style than down and her makeup was non-existent as she reached for her car keys on her nighstand and rushed out the door, being sure that her phone was in her pocket but uncaring if her apartment door was locked. the streets were still rather crowded as the aftermath of the hurricane was being cleaned of and disposed of but scarlett was not a force to be reckoned with and with a few threatening honks, she made people move faster, having no real remorse for running someone over just as long as she could say her peace of mind to eli before he jetted off to war.

the word war left a bitter taste on her tongue as she recalled the many times that her father had said the word, her mother and when the two soldiers, one being eli, came to her door and used the word as well. her foot was pressing harder on the gas pedal and she arrived at the airport in only a moments notice. the line up to the gate was too much for her, even with the use of her elbows as a weapon in order to shove people out of the way. men in uniform could be seen as they started to head into security, getting checked over and then being passed through a restricted center. her hazel eyes scanned the many faces before a familiar one caught her attention, ”ELI MASON!”[/b] she called out, her yelling drowning out the rest of the goodbyes that were happening around her. she moved past couples, married and engaged who had to say goodbye to one another and marched over to eli, holding her phone up, ”that’s it, a fucking text!?”[/b] she asked, her knuckles white while they wrapped around the phone. she knew an apology was in order for the words that she said but instead, stepping closer, she shook her head, ”that is not a fucking goodbye..”[/b], her lips finding his in a moment’s notice, eagerly moving to a pace that was quick and full of tongue. ”…please don’t go..”[/b] she whispered breathlessly while pulling away, her cold eyes tearing up to the sight of the male in uniform, ready to depart from her already empty life.[/div][/center]
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[ELI MASON]

We got a little crazy but we never got caught

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No, this couldn't be the day. It couldn't be the day where Eli would pack everything up and leave his life in Myrtle Beach behind. It couldn't be the day where he would finally realize that he would most likely never see Scarlett again. Why did he care so much? She didn't want to see him, let alone talk to him before he up and left. He was so sure of himself, the night before knocking at her apartment, hoping they could make peace and he would be free to leave a peacefully as he had arrived. Unfortunately, Eli knew for a fact that wasn't going to change and that he had to accept it. For the many years in the military did he realize that not everything in life came with an easy button, and with Scarlett, well, she was a rock all in her own. For the past few months Eli had found himself between a rock and a hard place, no where to go, nothing to say or do that could make Scarlett hate him any less. After the night before, he decided to give up. He was done, for good.

The light shone in brightly in his bedroom window. The faint sound of buzzing from his alarm clock notified him the early morning our of 5:00 a.m. A quick stretch and he was sitting up in bed, recalling the events of the night before. He couldn't believe it, not one bit of it. Although a small part of his mind said "I told you so" the rest said that he should have tried harder. That he should have tried harder to get Scarlett to understand that it was his job, and his duty to serve his country. Although he knew it wouldn't be easy for a woman to see a man go off to war twice in a lifetime, it wasn't stable on the emotions, but that was the way it had to be. Eli rubbed his eyes for a moment before standing up, taking another large stretch. The provisionals he would need were already packed in his duffel bag near the door, all he had to do now was get to the airport on time. He had been specifically instructed to be there three hours before departure, to make sure everyone was there and accounted for. Soon, Eli would be behind the wheel of a jet that could go faster than the speed of sound, dropping supplies, or anything else the ground troops might need in the event of an attack.

All in all, Eli's side had it pretty well made up. He slept in nicer bunks, had warm water showers, and even nice buffet meals at least once every two weeks which would be enough for him after all. it was in respect to the men who flew up above, the men who the ground troops counted on. Eli couldn't count how many lives he had saved after being deployed for the first time. Now he was a little more experienced and had less chance of messing things up, or wasting any lives. He was ready, his uniform on and his duffel on his shoulder he walked out of the apartment he wouldn't see again for another four months. He closed the door and locked it. The click assured him everything would be exactly the way it was. He stood out side of the door and sighed, leaning his head on it to catch his breath. "well...goodbye now..." he said calmy as he patted the wall and walked down the staircase.

The airport was just as busy as the thoughts running through his mind. Not only were his thoughts about the issues to come during the depolyment, but also the woman who had hated him from the start, but somehow had stolen his heart by the end. No dates, no actual talks, no encounters without yelling and still somehow she managed to get wedged underneath his skin like a parasite. A very sexy, strong, intelligent, amazing, parasite that he couldn't seem to shake off. For many years, Eli would be able to meet a woman and leave just as fast as he had arrived, but with Scarlett, it was completely different. She was always on his mind whether it was good or bad. Sometimes he would think to himself "I wonder if she would like it if I said..."

[/b] and talk to himself late at night about he could just grasp onto her and never let go. Sitting in the airport he sighed, taking out his phone from the duffel bag, only a few hours before he wouldn't be able to use a phone again. Unlocking it, he began to look through old pictures, read old text messages, and then he ran across something that threw off his thought process. The conversation he had had with Scarlett. Wasn't a long one by any means, but it did give him the idea on how to say one last goodbye without having to face her in person. Typing the three little letters he sent the message, laid his head back, and tried to forget about her altogether.

Eli awoke again to the sound of his buddies shaking him "Wake up loser, we're about to board." they said, and a few other things muttered that Eli, in his half awake stage, couldn't seem to make out. Standing up, he straightened out his jacket and threw his duffel up over his shoulder, and then he heard a voice. It was distant but enough for him to hear it, and recognize who had said. Turning around, he saw Scarlett running towards him. From the way she looked, she hadn't really prepared herself to come see his departure. His puzzled expression told it all when she began to yell at him for the text message he had sent. Before he could even say anything, she was pressed against him in an embrace he would never want to forget. But instead of actually letting her stay there, he pushed her away. He looked at her confused, his thought process calling him an idiot for even doubting her reasons for her action. "What are you doing here, Scarlett?" He said before responding to her comment, not wanting him to go "What do you mean don't go? You're the one who wanted me to leave. I'm nothing to you remember? All these past months you've wanted me dead and now you want me to stay here? What do you play me for? An idiot? A stupid ass who believes he's in love with you? Well those are both true but you can't just do this, Scarlett..." He took a pause to catch his breath "...you...you just can't..." His voice softened, his eyes lightly watered from all the emotion. His buddies stared but he didn't care. Now was the time to fix everything or lose it all, it would all depend on Scarlett...[/blockquote][/blockquote][/size]

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[SCARLETT DRESCELL]

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[/b] she whispered breathlessly before finding a group standing around the security section. she charged forward with a purpose, glancing at the security guard who was giving her a stern look but scarlett did not take the warning and attempted to duck under the male’s awaiting arm. he caught her arm though, trying to follow the group that was allowed past security and in a desperate attempt to get through, she screamed for eli’s name who turned around to face her.

the differences in him were noticeable but he still held that familiar confident smirk, but his hair was shorter and his clothes were crisper. the sight of his eyes had her breath hitching as she made the attempt to catch her breath, ”I think that’s an obvious answer..”[/b] she said with a raise of an eyebrow. her arms were released with a jerk as the security guard seemed to catch the recognition in eachother’s eyes. she shot a glare over her shoulder, moving over to eli in an attempt to find comfort as her thoughts were moving too fast for her to catch up. she felt that familiar pang of resentment for his existence in her stomach. he had caused her so much pain in her life, but he also brought her joy, made her smile in moments where it seemed nothing was going right and once more, scarlett was confused. she stumbled back as he pushed her away, growling under her breath as the stumble brought a loss of footing that she caught in just the right moment and shook her head, ”what the fuck eli?”[/b] she said harshly, glaring at the male that had been invading and occupying her thoughts for much longer than she would have liked. shaking her head at him, she brushed a hand through her hair, ruffling her bangs for strands of hair to fall into her face, ”I said what I mean, don’t go. don’tucking leave again, they always leave…and they never come back.”[/b] she said, taking a deep breathing, swallowing her own pride in the process. ”…what did you just say!?”[/b] she asked in anger instead of delight to the idea that another might actually love her, for her and everything that she was with flaws and all.

the idea of love never seemed appealing after watching her mother move on so fast after her father’s death. it seemed too easy for a love to be forgotten, ”you can’t…just fucking say that eli! you can’t say that and leave…you just…you can’t, it’s not fair to anyone!”[/b], her words coming out in anger as she gave him a shove as well. her hands collided with his chest, shaking her head at him. she felt anger surging through her but the tears slipping out of her eyes gave another idea to how she was feeling, eyes watched her movement and ears caught his words but no one made an attempt to step in and help the quarreling couple, or whatever they were. scarlett was fuming in her stance, breathing heavily and glaring at him before she took a step forward, ”you say you love me…”[/b] she whispered the words, saying the forbidden word for the first time in years, reaching up to place a hand to his cheek and pressing her lips to his. she wanted the comfort that he usually brought her when she was upset, he was able to calm her down with just words but scarlett was looking for more at this moment. she wanted confidence that he was coming back to her and would not be left for dead in the middle east, never to see him again—”show me..”[/b] she whispered against his plump lips, licking her own and moving her eyes from his lips to meet his gaze, daring him to make the move that they were both too proud to make.[/div][/center]
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[ELI MASON]

We got a little crazy but we never got caught

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The plane that was soon to be boarded on the way to Germany would house Eli and 70 other men of the American Military safetly across seas. It didn't take much for a man to realize how far away from home he would really be, but the woman standing in front of him made it that much worse. Throughout the time Eli had been living in Myrtle, he had been attempting to get Scarlett to do anything but hate him. Sure they slept together but to him that didn't mean a thing. There wasn't any feeling in that. It was more like shameful feelings for her coming out all in one night that were shaded the next day after she would mysteriously be gone by the time he awoke. Eli didn't have much choice but to just hope for the best, until recently. Now, he was focused on forgetting her, he didn't want to think about her anymore now that she had showed him what she felt the night before.

Eli's expression towards her was meaningless. In his mind, this was just some fabled plee to try and get him to stay longer so she would still have a toy to play with every now and then, and in his mind, he was done with it. Scarlett, he loved her yes, he loved her more than he knew but that didn't stop him from trying to forget about her for good and move on. Taking in a deep breath he looked down upon the fragile looking woman standing in front of him, his eyes still watering lightly. He began to speak trying to push the tears away "I came back the first time didn't I? Why do you think so strongly that i'm going to be killed out there?" he said, curious but also furious. He loved the way she worried about him, but he hated the way it seemed she thought he wasn't strong enough to make it back home.

It took a moment for him to realize that he had actually said that he loved her. Not directly but still in a way. He had said that he loved her and that was that. As soon as she asked what he said, immediately he yelled out "I said I love you Scarlett! God. Okay yes, I love you. I don't know why, or how, or...I just, love you. Don't you think for a second that I wouldn't do everything in my power to stay right here, with you..." he took a pause, trying to catch his breath, noticing the commerades staring at him and now random people, he didn't care, he didn't have time to worry about people's judgements. His voice softened, so soft that only she would have been able to hear it "...I have to go..." When she shoved him back he grabbed onto her wrists and leaned closer to her, still speaking gently "Listen to me, listen to me...I have to go.." He almost couldn't finish the sentence but through pure power and will he did. He looked her in the eyes and decided it was time to show her how much he loved her. He wasn't sure if she loved him back but he had a pretty good idea. It was all he could give her before leaving. Pulling her into him he kept her there, his lips against hers, not pulling away or holding back. It felt great, it felt right, it was kissing the woman he loved and that was enough. He could hear the applause of some people around them, probably thinking that they were in the middle of some stupid teen movie. He smiled down at her, lifting her chin up with his hand "I love you.." He whispered. Suddenly the sound of the intercom came on, notifying him and rest of the terminal that the flight was now boarding. His face turned from hope to despair as he began to back away from her in the direction of the door.

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[SCARLETT DRESCELL]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,10,true][/style][atrb=style, width: 525px; border-bottom: 20px #9B6402 solid, bTable] COPS CAN CHASE BUT THEY WON'T CATCH ME not before i get to speak my mind, if there's still time [style=height: 303px; width: 250px; margin-right: -520px; font-size: 8.5px; font-family: tahoma; text-align: justify; line-height: .9; text-transform: lowercase; overflow: auto; scrollbar-base-color:#9B6402; color: #000;]there was nothing but doubt in her mind at this particular moment but there was not a time that the male had left that he had not returned. mornings, evenings, afternoons, whenever the girl needed him, he was nothing but a phone call and a few seductive words away and it worked every single time. eli became a staple in her life, a consistency that she felt strange not seeing and now that he was going to be leaving for months, what was her life going to be like now? it was hard to go a week without seeing the males and now that the time had been extended, scarlett was unsure of how she was going to cope. she had never felt so weak in her entire life, mirroring the feelings that she got the first time that she ever met eli, exchanged words with him—it felt similar. it was a feeling of despair, loneliness and confusion as she had no idea the feelings that were stirring up inside of her cold heart but it was beating now and it was beating for him. ”because this is a different war, this is a different battle eli. this is fucking insanity…”

[/b] she said shaking her head despite the grip that he had on her, she wanted to push him away and tell him to never come back but her heart and mind were disagreeing and for once, her heart was winning this battle. her fragile body was shaking in his grip, toying with the sleeves of her shirt in an attempt to keep herself from saying something ridiculous that would leave her lips and she would regret it. she wanted to say harsh things to him, kick, scream, fight every emotion that she was feeling to the male but his touch was so soft and his voice was so soothing that she felt like melting into a liquid at his feet. how did someone that she had hated for so long make her feel this good, this alive? she did not understand it but scarlett was not going to fight it either.

she was scared. it was the truth that scarlett was not going to admit outloud because then it would become a reality, and when it was in her mind, it was just a mere thought—nothing dangerous, nothing tangible. she was so afraid to lose another soldier in her life, someone that kept her strong and able bodied. her father had been her rock, her everything and her guidance in life and she got lost when they had buried him into the cold ground back in her hometown, so lost that she had turned to partying, rebelling, had even had a child by the time that she was seventeen but scarlett was too selfish and too selfless to raise a baby with the lifestyle that she was living. now, she had another rock in her life that was departing for war and scarlett was unsure if she was going to see him again, ”they always leave and never come back. my dad did…you were there, you can’t be stupid like him please eli…don’t be a fucking matyr, don’t be a jackass and risk your life..”[/b]. the concept of saving another’s life had never had to actually occur to the brunette and so, she did not understand why anyone would do it, it made no sense to her and in some way, she resented her dad for not thinking about his family and taking a suicidal step into the collapsing building. she physically flinched as his voice raised, causing heads to turn in their direction and she raised both eyebrows to him, her jaw clenching as she had a bit of anger to bite back for the scene that he had just caused. ”…then do it. stay here, right here…with me, if you say you do…do it!”[/b] she screamed at him, falling into the same pattern that they always had of bite and remark filled with hate and passion for one another. it was their defensive mechanism, yelling and screaming to light the fire under their skin but the ending to this fight would not be falling into the bed. she did not want him to leave with words of anger exchanged between the two of them.

she shook her head to the sound of his voice, the word go repeating over and over again and she kept repeating the word, ”no..no..”[/b] as though that would make it easier for both of them, or stop his flight from departing. it was not going to do either but scarlett was willing to risk the humiliation of being wrong if it meant that eli was going to stay in her arms. she gave him a shove out of pure reaction, but was suddenly pulled flush into his body and she gasped, her eyes narrowing into slits as he repeated the words, ”heard you the first time..”[/b] she hissed back, but she still felt the tears rush to the brim of her eyes and with one blink, they spilled over and rolled down her cheeks. her chin trembled as she tried to hold back the sob in her throat and it was muffled by his lips suddenly covering hers and she took the kiss, giving everything right back to him. her hands entangling in his hair, her other hand cupping his cheek and her thumb stroking the skin under his eye. the appalause around them caused her to falter for a moment but she kept up with him, hoping that this could be a key factor to keeping him around but when he pulled away, she shook her head to him, ”don’t eli…please..”[/b] she whispered against his lips as the embrace had ceased and the space between them was growing larger and larger until her finger tips was no longer touching skin. she did not say the words back to him but the look on her face and the tears coming out of her eyes said everything as she watched him back away from her and head toward the door to the plan. she growled to the shoulder rubs that she was getting, pushing comforting hands off with an attempt to calm the hysterical girl down, or what they deemed to be hysterical. she wiped at her eyes and pushed people’s bodies away from her, moving to the window to watch the men in uniform form a line by the plane, her eyes flitting until she caught his familiar features and stared, watching until he was no longer in sight.[/div][/center]
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